I live with my best friends grandma... we call her Gammy. I love gammy dearly she is a great joy to be around most of the time she takes care of me feeds me makes sure i'm up for work. But sometimes i really just dont understand where she gets what she says. Like for instance today I was reading off a status update my dad posted on facebook. it said "mike misses his youngest, do what you gotta do" and i read it to her because i thought it was sweet and showed that he missed me and loves me but understands that i cant be coming home all the time to see him or whatever and right after i read that she said "well that means you need to grow up" in this tone like i'm living in a fantasy world and i need to grow up and get away from my dad.
it really hurt my feelings because my dad is my life he is who i do everything i do for he is the one i'm trying to make proud in everything i do he is the one i miss the most out of every one in norwalk because he understands me.... he loves me no matter what i do but he always wants something better for me. and for her to just sit there and say that i need to grow up like i'm not already i've been living away from my entire family for 5 years. i miss them all so terribly. and because of this long distance relationship i have lost touch with alot of them and dont talk to alot of them anymore which is upsetting but the truth. her grand daughter who happens to be my best friend has never been away from her family. and she's told me that she could never do that she could never been this far away from her family for this long it would be too hard on her and her dad is to her like mine is to me. everything. so i think if i have a day where i really miss my daddy and wanna feel like he misses me too i dont think it should be a big deal.
gammy is a very emotionless person. she has her happy her sad her depressed her angry but alot of them she doesnt show. so then there's me who has TONS of emotion and i show every single one of them. if i'm angry you know if i'm sad you know if i'm depressed you know. and that makes her mad because she thinks that every time i'm angry or mad or depressed i shouldnt be. its human emotion i'm allowed to feel whatever way i would like to feel. she gets frustrated with me when i get into my lovey dovey moods and like to think that when i watch a romantic movie that someday things like that will happen to me. and she sits over in her little chair and just scowls at me and says that those things never happen and to not hold my breathe and whatever.
so then i get depressed and upset because i was up in such a high thinking life could get better from here and she just pulls me back down to what she thinks is reality but i dont think it is. i think that someday some guy will come sweep me off my feet and be the most romantic sweet loving guy i've ever met. yeah we will fight we will bicker... i mean i already know that i'm a moore its almost like i like to fight and bicker but it doesnt mean that the sweet stuff will never happen or the nice things will never get done for me
so i'm going to sit here on my throne and wait for that special guy because i know he is out there... just ask my daddy he'll tell ya! haha
anyways i'll stop ranting about gammy she's a great lady and i am glad that she's letting live here and feeding me and what not but she just needs to understand that i DO have a lot of mood swings that i cant control and if you've got me in a good mood you probably shouldnt say things like that to put me in a bad mood because now its all down hill from here for the rest of the day.... but i cant explain that to her because she will never understand...
