Brand New YEAR!

HELLO 2009!!!! i'm so happy to see you.... no really I am... This year is going to be GREAT in the life of Megan Elizabeth Moore... I will be working alot on my thesis... which is on a medium scale retail development in norwalk ohio... which is my home town... woop woop go norwalk!!!... anyways... so i will probably be going to norwalk alot over the next year which is also good because my family is there and i will get to see them more often.

Lets talk about my family... wanna? they are the highlight of my family especially my 3 yr old niece Erin Michelle... or as uncle dave says it... Erin Michelle Erin Michelle Erin Michelle (you have to say it 3 times cause she's so cute) she is just a wonderful child always laughing smiling and caring about others... I dont think i've EVER seen this child throw even the slightest temper tantrum... ahem... i'm kidding although alot of the times she is smilling... most of it is because she is plotting some spectacular event to get away with something she's done wrong... dont get me wrong she's a good kid... good... but evil... just ask her honey

ahh yes on to Honey (my dad aka grandpa honey) he has to be the most important person in my life right now... and of course he's married to Kimmy his wifey and my wonderful step mother (is this enough sucking up guys?!) no really they are great. With my most recent events that have overturned my life they both were there for me even though they were 200 miles away and i thank them a billion times over for that (now i'm done sucking up)

my sister is awesome too she deals with alot of my crap if i'm in a grumpy mood i usually call her and take it out on her because she's the only one to actually listen to my bullshit and then tell me i'm being stupid and to snap out of it! haha thats why i love her and why she's one of my best friends oh and because she popped out like the BEST kid EVER!!!!!

on to friends.... Bekki Salamon has been there for me through everything when i lived in cleveland she took care of me... taught me out to be poor and still eat! haha and tought me out to cook which is one thing we love doing together! one day i hope to open a bed and breakfast with her somewhere in this lovely country either cleveland or massachusetts or something but when that happens it will be the COOLEST B&B you'll ever go to i SWEAR!

Tara Garrison has been my best friend for about 5 years now we have had our ups and downs but she is probably one of the few people that know me inside and out... its rather scary actually! she is getting ready to graduate from college and is super stoked about it and i am for her as well she's dating an amazing guy, derrick, and he's so good to her and good for her i'm happy for them

bonnie is a newly found best friend we are exactly a like... in some ways and totally opposite in others! kinda fit together i guess she's just so much fun to hang out with and laugh with and just forget about all the horrible things that are happening in the world (the innauguration tomorrow) i hope we stay friends for a long time she was there for me even though she didnt know it and anytime she needs me i'll be there for her

ok this has been all about people that are so happy and wonderful and i lvoe them so much but obviously if you've caught on 2008 hasnt been the best year for me.  At the beginning of the year i was engaged to whom i thought was the man (boy) of my dreams we were living together in cincinnati he was working i was working and going to school. well that somewhere along the year he fell out of love with me and without telling me this started seeing people behind my back. he fell in love with one of the girls he was seeing and he left me for her... well he never left me i kicked him out of our apartment after i found some incriminating emails and we both just kind of assumed it was over.  which it was... its still kind of a touchy subject... he was my first love and losing him in such a manner is terrifying and horrible but one of my close friends and i were talking one inebrated night at taras house after richie and i were over... and i just kept asking him why this was happening to me... and he said something that stuck with me more than anything anyone else has said he said "god only puts you through things that he KNOWS you can handle... so i know you can handle this megan" 

(wow brought a tear to my just thinking about it) i have lived through that saying ever since that night and it has helped me a billion times over... when i'm really down and upset about the whole thing i just think about what he said and realize that its ok and it will get better ... and guess what IT HAS!!!!

up until a week ago i was still talking to richie... not ever day but at least once a week he's like a drug and i was HIGHLY addicted to him. but i found out last week that he is now engaged to this girl he left me for and he says he's happy and wants to spend the rest of his life with her (even though 6 months ago he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me) this just shows me how immature he really is which is mostly painful because i fell into his trap a billion times over and over again and i still do to this day think about him multiple times a day... think about the good times and the bad... but mostly i try to think about how he IS NOT that person anymore so no matter how much i want it back or want him back it will never happen because he is not the same person

i've learned alot of life lessons this year... which is good... but painful... i've learned that life is like the corkscrew at cedar point and sometimes when you go around those curves... the ride stalls at the top and your entire life falls out of the car and scatters all over the ground... and it takes a lot to pick up those pieces and sometimes you feel like your picking them up all by yourself and then you look up wipe away the tears from your eyes so you can see clearly and you see all of your friends and family right there beside you handing you your shit gather it into one big pile to put back in the roller coaster car... only to get back in once its all picked up to go back up that hill and around that curve where it all falls out again... sometimes its worse than others

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here is the new me in 2009!!